It doesn’t feel strange at all, now that I’ve let go and came to a great appreciative mindset, that I am just focused on f-a-m-i-l-y.
I love where I work, what I do and those I work with. They are my extra extended family and I am grateful they care about me. They make sure I take lunches and saves food for me if I forgot to bring one. They get me coffee, covers my customers when I have to leave and brings me flowers.
I love my mom and immediate family. They understand how busy I am now being here and there but will always welcome me home. They look out for when my head pops through the door and makes me my favorite dishes. I love their warmth and I always love coming home to sleep.
I love my boyfriend’s family. His mom always making us breakfast when she has the chance to and getting me holiday gifts. His family always making me feel the most loved and included…even when I secretly want to go mental I don’t because they make me really comfortable. I love being a part of holiday parties and evening relaxations. I love sleeping here and I love waking up here.
I love having my boyfriend everywhere I really go. No, not to work or to school but on trips, grocery stores, social events…I love looking at his expression and understanding his feelings/thoughts. I love how he makes me feel like there isn’t enough time for me to love him. I feel inseparable.
Family is such an important foundation for me to find myself, really find myself. I am where I want to be, somewhere I never knew I could reach. I’ve realized where my focus should be now and what’s unnecessary no longer needs to be in my life. I wouldn’t change my life for the thrill of hype, just to have the time of my life when the time of my life is learning about those that I love. I can’t stress it enough that I love security. It is in no way boring, but yet it eases my mind off worrying about who actually loves me or is this person going to talk to me. I have all this time to focus on my education. Win-win :)
Nights where I find myself waking at 3 am, I turn to see you sleeping peacefully beside me. It is the most rewarding feeling of all. Nothing has ever been more comfortable.